Varlıq və Yoxluq Arasında follows Mavi — a young man whose name means “Blue” — as he navigates a world suspended between existence and nothingness. In a near-future where euthanasia camps have become an accepted institution, consciousness wages war against the primal survival instincts encoded in our genes.
Through fourteen chapters that move from the roar of silence to the inevitability of death, the novel interrogates what it means to exist in a universe indifferent to our suffering. Nostalgia becomes a disease, gratitude for existence becomes absurd, and the ultimate rebellion against creation takes the form of the most forbidden act.
Written in Azerbaijani and published by Alatoran in 2017, this philosophical novel draws on the existentialist tradition of Camus, Sartre, and Faulkner while forging its own raw, surrealist vision.
..Qırmızı, bir xatirədir. Zərərsiz və kiçik xatirə. Mavi, soyuq, isti, qaranlıq, yaşıl, dəniz, A’nın tələffüzü, qaçmaq və gülmək an incə təfərrüatlarına qədər işlənilib yaddaşa yüzlərlə ya minlərlə neyron şəbəkəsi tərəfindən hakk olunmuş xatirələrdir. Bütün bu zərərsiz və kiçik təfərrüatlar birləşərək daha böyük, kompleks və bəzən zərərli xatirələr yaradırlar..
14 chapters arranged as a clock — from existence to nothingness and back
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The novel was originally written in Azerbaijani. Translating its existentialist prose — where every word carries philosophical weight — requires careful attention to preserve both meaning and atmosphere.
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Some griefs have no cure — only a name, and that name is misery. There come moments in life when you find yourself drowning inside your own existence. You collapse beneath the weight of all the notes you've kept, all those warm and optimistic hopes, all those plans you once made. The longing and regret of the past press from one side, the panic and dread of the future from the other, squeezing your heart like a vise. Your whole world caves in on you.
Living wasn't worth the trouble — not for him, at the very least. And he was tired now. He had just left his job. He thought of it like zugzwang in chess — whatever move you make, you're mated, you've already lost, and there is no escape.
Death was like an enormously wide river teeming with crocodiles, separating two cities. Every time you approach to cross, you recoil in terror. And the far bank of that river was paradise — yes, paradise. Nonexistence. Is that not the greatest paradise of all?
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The original Azerbaijani edition, 396 pages. Published by Alatoran, 2017.
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